请不要放开我的双手

YSunday, October 17, 2004 Y

I am Truely , Deeply & Madly in Love with You

"i juz wan to be alone dis few daes"

dats ish all i noe. wad happen. wad he thinking. wad he feeling now. i dunno anything at all. he dun answer moi corrs or reply moi sms. wad da facked ish going on. i totally habe no idea. so ppl out dere. dun ask mie. the more yew ask. da more useless yew make mie feel i am.

when he needs someone. i cant be dere. and ish not dere. da least i can do for him now. ish to leabe him alone. and be alone moiself too. will ppl worrie abt mie? will ppl care? all i had on mind was huixian's de "who cares!!"

mayb i think too much. or mayb moi feelings ish rite. mayb things are going to be ova btw us ??? i had no idea. and i pray dat ish not lorr. all i noe ish. if i neber gibe a try. i will regret in future when i think back. thou ish juz a few daes nia. momeries are not much. but i will still treasure dis little bit of memories dat i habe. da dae i din went to work and went to ming hse with dear n xian bao beii n ivan. sleeping beside yew. with yew covering blankie for miee. not going to toilet for scared of waking miee up. went to wild wild wet. yew giving mie piggie backs rides. shelthering moi head for fear dat da water force is too big. thought dat time still not together yet. but all sweet memories. when for sure not forgetting 9 oct. da dae we were together. all da things yew said when i agree to be with yew. da dae yew sent mie home thou once nia. but stil beta den nth. how yew told mie to wake up yew in da morning incase huixian cant wakey to pei mie. even in maple story. dear come to elline to find mie juz to pass mie some equip and tell mie he keep for mie de *so touched* etc etc.

*praying hard* dat ish i think too much.
*praying hard* dat dere ish nth wrong going on btw us
*praying hard* dat everyting will be fine
*praying hard* dat moi tears will stop
*praying hard* dat moi heart wun hurt
*praying hard* dat everyting will de fine n okie
*praying hard* dat every prayer will be heard

*praying hard* *praying hard* *praying hard* *praying hard* *praying hard* *praying hard*

xiaohuiis Y1:31 PM