YThursday, March 31, 2005 Y
I am Truely , Deeply & Madly in Love with You
hmm. moi com ish down for a few daes le bah. haiz. sianz. bo com. bo maple. bo msn. can onli log in net msn in bro room while he nt around. haiz. anywae. todae ish moi ex de ma de bdae. dey ask mie along. bart dunno to go or not. gort to wait see baobeii hen n kenny dear dat side hw le. den can decide ba.
somehw. alot o things going thru moi mind. abit worried abt kenny dear. worried abt moi ex also. juz read da email he send mie. haiz. indeed. he ish a very fan jian guy. finalli he willing to admit it le.loLs. things ish over le. den he lyke start to regret. bart yet i am glad. dat i still mean sth to him. dat i still somehw gort a place in his heart. thou we are ova le. bart. somehw. this things dat i m glad of. make another ger's heart break. haiz. dats his gf. somehw i can picture her. trying her beri best. to b a gd gf to him. almost willing to do anything, or even everything. juz to make him happie. somehw it was lyke i picturing da old mie while with him. bart i guess. her end results will be same as mine. will nt be worth it in da end. coz he seriously ish one dat dunno wad ish corr cherish n treasure. neither does he noe regret. till things are long long ova. den he start to cherish, treasure n regret. guess one big diff from mie n his current n 1st gf ish dat. lyke wad he sae. i understand him da most. even w.o him saying anything most of da time. i will or can guess wad he wan to do or wan to sae. i also dunno hw come i can do dat. mayb dat time i tried so hard to understand him. coz he kept changing. its definitely nt easy to noe him so well. n not good neither. dats why every time he went "out of wae" in our relationship. all da time. i also noe n caught him haha. guess so far. as he state in da email. i m da one alwae make him cry n can make him cry de ba.
a relationship since i was 18 till 20+. 2yrs+. one dat i reali put in all moi heart. giving everything i can. giving my best shot in everything. juz. hoping it will work out. juz for a smile. a luff. dat comes from his heart. i guess after so mani yrs. since i had moi 1st stead till now. dere are a few dat i wun be able to forget n i guess i nv will wan to forget ba.
hmm. qinlong.. moi sec 2 de stead. staying in wlds. 9mth+. we had never quarrel b4. bart he ish da guy dat caused mie n moi cousin to fall out. till todae. coz we both fall for da same guy. erm. bart other ppl sae ish i snatch de. haiz. everydae take cab to n fro. n hw i would change clothes in da taxi haha. damn pro sia. whahaa.
hmm. den ish moi doggie junkang. he ish moi ex kelvin n also simon de good buddy. n ish one of moi friend de stead. or mayb nt together le. due to his violence. haiz. things had certainly changed alot for him. ever since his family break down. still rem hw he used to wait for mie everydae at moi grannie hse. juz to walk mie home. he will be dere waiting for mie everydae w/o fail. regardless rain or shine. hw we used to chiong ddr. n i skip sch juz to chiong ddr with him. hw he teach mie ddr n i get a SS in butterfly n he gort C at moi 1st try. wahaha.loLs. n of coz not forgetting hw he alwae come to moi hse da multistory carpark juz to see mie b4 he slp. hw we communicate to each other thru handsign. coz dat time i cant use hse phone. duh !~ n hw he tried to shoot in paper bullets with notes to moi room. damn funnie. coz distance ish sooo far. haha. bart yet. when we decided to get attached to each other. we break of da next dae. haha. n den we try agian. n again after one dae. we break again. guess we both during dat time treasure da "relationship" we have alot ba. n dun wish to spoil it. we are still good pals now ..
next ish a very special one. one dat i think i will not have another one in moi life ever again. a one in a life time de. one. i will definitely no regrets. n wun forget. near to 2yrs together. alot o happie times. n we gort a little piggie with wings. hehe. reali been thru alot o objections to stay together. yet. i broke up when i grad from sec sch. n work in ponderose n get to noe bear bear. haiz.
aiya. i talk too much craps le.. guess recently nth to do. reali make mie think alot ba. i dun think i will ever forget dem. n with dem in moi heart. i dun think i can have da courage to start a new one. coz it wun be fair to da new person in moi life i guess. and. i am reali tired le ba. after all i have been thru. wanna take a rest ...
:: Ah Ber ::
